Do you ever feel like you need to completely turn your life upside down? Make some huge changes that are completely uncharacteristic and maybe continue to seem like a bad idea no matter how much you try to rationalize them?

I've been toying around for the past few days with the idea of "jumping ship".. leaving the life that I know for an extended period of time (3-6-12 months) and trying something different. And for some reason that "something different" seems to be heading across the country and bumming around California for awhile.

Why would I want to do this? First, I feel stuck, and I feel like I need to make a change.. a big change. Maybe that would help me appreciate what it is that I have right now, maybe it'll show me something that I want more and would rather have, and maybe it would lead to a horrible mess that I spend years trying to get myself out of. I think that risk is part of the appeal. Second, right now I have very little responsibility, few things holding me back. I'm afraid if I don't try something now, that when I start thinking about it again, it won't be feasible.

Am I going to do it? Maybe. Probably not. As much as I want to think that I could face my fears and start something completely new like that, I don't think I can pull it off. Unless I ended up with a great job offer, and could find an affordable place to live, it just doesn't seem realistic, and almost self-defeating to try to go through with it.

So what's the point? I came into this post ready to list off a bunch of reasons why it was a great idea, but trying to articulate those ideas made me realize that escaping isn't what I need to do. I think we all get to this point at least once, some of us can work it out on our own, some of us turn to others, and some get tired of trying to handle it. This idea of "escaping" what ails us, our difficulties, is often more appealing than trying to face the things that need to be faced and to work through them. I guess that's the road that I have to go down.. I have to face what I don't want to face, and change what I'm resistant to change. A vacation is good, escaping.. not so much.

If anyone has any good techniques for dealing with stress/life changes – leave a comment.

I'm reading through a book right now, it seems good, but I'm reluctant to start dropping titles of books until I get to the end and can fully judge the quality. It sounds like a lot of good ideas for dealing with just this sort of thing, but I'm yet to get to anything practical and usable rather than just theory. I'd settle even for usable theory. We'll see. 🙂

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  1. spudart said,

    This is a really long blog post, can you summarize it for me, please?

    June 15, 2010 @ 12:57 pm

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